10.18.2012

Documentation

It's been a while since I've documented any sort of real life. I'm beginning to wonder if I have one. The days blend together. Blurs of homework, sleep, and daydreaming mold themselves together. Still I think now is the best time to document life. The insane daily laughter I experience with friends in the halls of my school as we try to make sense of all that is high school. The sweetness that comes from late night movie theater dates when me and Joel are the only ones in the theater. The last dinner before seeing off a dear family member overseas for duty. These memories flood my inner being as I try to capture all that is important and looking at this I feel like too much of my life has been wasted.
What is important to me? This has been the question on my mind lately. I look around at our cushy American way of life and it seems that we have too many blessings to even pay attention to. Things that I loved before now seem pointless. My mind at the moment is under a crazy amount of re-filtering and refiling and re-prioritizing. This is what I'm documenting: a process. A change.
These photos aren't the best of me. Stress acne building on my forehead. No make up. And I was too lazy to dress up or do anything with my hair. But when I look I these, I see someone beautiful, and I think that's important. I'm not trying to bring in any vanity, but for once in my very short existence I feel this sense of satisfaction from being, me.
So I know this is not a very coherent post but perhaps this post is more for me. I need to document somewhere and this seemed like the place to do it. This blog will be undergoing some changes as re-prioritize it. I hope to blog with more purpose and substance than I have in the past, even if my posts are more spread out.

If you have time read this post. It's absolutely lovely: http://bexmbrandt.wordpress.com/2012/10/11/background/

And also please check out this organization and pray/help if you can:
http://www.allgirlsallowed.org/

much love,
Sarah Jasmine.


4 comments:

  1. Wow...overwhelmingly powerful! You definintely touched on something big here, Sarah! I am so proud of you for realizing this at such a young age. I love you! You inspire me! Keep being you (whichever you that will be!)

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  2. You are beautiful, Sarah, and you always have been. You really are like Jasmine, in that you keep flowering and opening and growing. Tana's right.

    BTW, which family member went off to service?

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    1. Thank you to both of you! It's so encouraging to hear things like that.
      Marien it is my cousin Sean.

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    2. That's funny. Mare is actually me, your wonderful Aunt Mary Montgomery! I love you, Sarah, and looking at this again I am struck by your wisdom.

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